ALWAYS BEEN YOU!

I TRIED TO LET THIS FEELING SIT, I WAS INLOVE AND FOR SOME REASON MY HEART WOULDN’T QUIT.

FORCING MYSELF TO BECOME A VICTUM OF HIS LOVE BUT EACH TIME I TRIED I NEVER FELT ENOUGH.

MY HEART WAS STARING TO SINK AND MY MIND WAS TRANSITIONING I KNEW THAT THIS PLACE I WAS IN WAS TEMPORARY NO ONE DESERVES TO LOVE AND NOT BE LOVED… BUT TELL ME WHY I WAS NEVER ENOUGH?

I WOULD BE HIDDEN AND YOU WOULD BE OUT TO PLAY BUT EVEN ON YOUR WORST DAYS I WOULD STILL LOVE YOU THE SAME, I WISH YOU SAW THE PERSON EVERYONE ADMIRED WAS IT BECAUSE MY HEART GREW A BIT LIGHTER? I SWEAR THAT I CARRY THE MOST GRACE…SO BAD… THAT I CAN’T EVEN LIE TO YOUR FACE… IT WAS EASY TO CARE FOR ANOTHER SOUL BECAUSE I ALWAYS YEARNED FOR SOMEONE TO FEED MY MIND EVEN WHEN WE WERE HAVING HARD TIMES.

LETTING GO HASN’T BEEN EASY EACH TIME I FEEL LIKE IM OVER THIS, HERE YOU COME TO SPEAK TO ME CLEARY BUT THIS TIME I WOULDN’T BELIEVE IT. I CANT KEEP LOVING A SOUL WHO DOESN’T READ ME FIERCELY. I GUESS IM NOT READY FOR A FULL TIME COMMITMENT IT WAS ALL ABOUT HOW TO UNDERSTAND SOMETHING IN YOU TO THAT I NEED TO CHANGE IN ME.. IS IT BECAUSE WE BOTH SEEM TO FEAR THE SAME THINGS WANTING TO LOVE BUT NOT GIVING PEOPLE A CHANCE TO SHOW US THEIR HEARTS BECAUSE IN OUR MIND IT WAS NEVER ENOUGH.. TELL ME THATS WHY WE COULD NEVER WORK.. MY ADMIRATION FOR YOU WAS FAR BEYOND LUST AND SEXUAL PLEASURE ALTHOUGH IT WAS NICE TO BRING OUR CELLS TOGETHER IT SADDENS ME THAT YOU DON’T REMEMBER THE WAY WE USE TO LAUGH IN THE HOUSE FOREVER ENDLESS NIGHTS OF SPEAKING ON A HIGHER LEVEL, I WAS IN DEEPER THEN I SHOULD HAVE NEVER BUT THEIRS NO REGRETS IN MY HEART JUST MY MIND THAT DEPENDS ON A FINAL LINE.. WHERE DO WE GO FROM HERE MY DEAREST LOVE? I FIGURED IT WAS OVER THE DAY YOU WALKED OFF. LIKE THE OLD SAYING GOES DON’T LET GO TIL YOUR SURE BUT AT THIS POINT IT SEEMS SO UNKNOWN.

IS IT TIME TO LET GO, QUESTIONING MY FEAR INSIDE ME YES IT SCREAMS BACK THE FIRE ENLIGHTEN.. NO MORE ROOM FOR FEAR TO GROW MAYBE THATS WHY WE BOTH KNEW WE HAD TO LET GO. I’LL MISS THE DAYS WHEN IT WAS NORMAL NOT THAT IT HAD TO BE SAID FOR US TO KNOW ALMOST AS IF WE GOT EACH-OTHER AND SOME HOW WE BOTH KNOW BUT IN THE END OUR ROAD IS DEAD. I GUESS WE WILL ALWAYS BE JUST FRIENDS OR TOO SOULS WHO NEVER MET. SOULS THAT NEEDED THE SENSATION OF EACH-OTHER SO WE MAY FIND THE LOVES IN OURSELVES TO GIVE TO ANOTHER. THE THOUGHTS OF A FAIRY TALE STORY WITH A BOY FROM THE PARTY I’LL NEVER FORGET THE DAY WE MET (OH) DEAREST LOVE WE WERE MEANT TO BE IN THE END.

TO ALL THE BOYS I EVER LOVED YOU WERE THE SWEETEST IN THE CUSP OF IT ALL.

Published by akkware

In the process of discovering one of many desires, I hope that my words are living through every soul that encounters.

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